I'm calm, all is well

Reading the posts from last year made me realize just how angry and bitter I was at the time. A lot has changed since then. I'm more confident, out-going and finally found a balance between work and life. I'm getting an education in a field that I enjoy. I have severed contact with certain people that were driving me over the edge. I've found peace in the company of those that I enjoy being with.

Life is good

I'm fine

It's all fine

Let it be so

Continue On

I am getting tired

I can't bitch about this on Facebook, because they are watching (no joke here) and Twitter is way too impersonal and brief for this.

I am getting sick and fucking tired of short-staffing at my job. It's getting to the point where if someone calls in sick (like from a stress overload) it totally fucks up the entire day. The guy at the front calls in sick, I have to cover his ass and nothing gets done in the back. It's fucking horseshit that a business would do that. Oh, and a customer bitches at you because there aren't enough cashiers. One of these days I will tell him the truth and say that we are short-staffed because my company sees labor as a cost that needs to be cut. That is total pigshit that a business would build itself around an ideal of worker burnout. Oh, and that burnout manifests itself as a bunch of "oh, I don't know" or "I don't care" but with a series of grunts and disapprovals.

I fucking hate managers that don't know shit, it's gotten to the point where I won't talk to a couple of them because they are more retarded than a bag of fucking hammers. Don't you just love a workplace where the day's outcome is determined by the manager's mood that day?

That last sentence was sarcasm, the rest of this entry was not.

See blog title

Wake up with a splitting headache

Hoping that emptying one's stomach

Would make it all go away

It didn't happen

Instead I slept

I slept and slept and slept

Up in the late afternoon

Feeling better at least

Is it stress?

I think so

I need to find a better release

Than the one you find at the bottom of a bottle

I guess I should get out and meet people

But first to clean up my mess

It will be done.

A World of Shit

Because I am hard, you will not like me. But the more you hate me the more you will learn. I am hard, but I am fair! There is no racial bigotry here! I do not look down on niggers, kikes, wops or greasers. Here you are all equally worthless and my orders are to weed out all non-hackers who do not pack the gear to serve in my beloved Corps! Do you maggots understand that?! - R. Lee Ermey, Full Metal Jacket (1987)

I kind of decided to quote Full Metal Jacket there, the movie is full of quotes and that one resonated with me the most. It might be hard to listen to for some people, but that is the point. The world is a hard and unforgiving place represented by Ermey. The more you hate the world, the more you will learn and maybe then you will learn to love once you learn to deal.